Tarot reading

My inquiry:

"What does the future hold for my fulfillment of sexual desire?"

"The left card represents an important element of the past.
King of Wands:
The essence of fire behaving as air, such as lightning: A great and daring leader who inspires others to rise to challenges alongside him. An artist who can take hold of an idea and make it a reality through bold action. One who is forceful, charismatic, and honest, leading by example, but unafraid to invest authority in others. A dashing and magnetic personality, carrying authority naturally, and striking at the world with swiftness and grace."

•I am thinking this means something about DOING art. I have been thinking about my relationship to art-making and that it is my primary relationship.

• That I am married to the craft, for better or worse.

• Like many artists, I find a measurable increase in output when I am having sex.

•The Muse. I am between muses, and my production has decreased to nearly nothing.

• Quintessentially, this speaks to self-confidence. That in the past I had far less conflict with pursuing and accepting sexual expression. That seems to have been lost.


"The middle card represents a deciding element of the present.
Two of Wands (Dominion):
Established power and influence over others. Setting goals and a vision for the future. Coming to grips with the impact of past decisions, considering the current state of affairs, and developing a plan of action. Responsible leadership."

•This!
The state of transition I am in has an effect on my following through with any present opportunities that are available; that I am sublimating desire for sexual expression so as to focus my energy on securing a home, assessing priorities and responding in kind.

• That I am still hung up on a continuing romance with former Lovers. Move On! I hear the masses chant...

• The goal is to aspire to fulfill higher goals, setting aside pleasure for the sake of Happiness.

"The right card represents a critical element of the future.
Wheel of Fortune:
The path of destiny. Karma on a grand scale. An unexpected turn of good fortune. A link in the chain of events. Success, luck, and happiness."

• I am confused by the future, though it does help to confirm for me the intiutions I have been experiencing. To wit: Keep doing what I have been doing, I am assuredly on the correct path.

• The confusion is the result of wanting to know the outcome before it has fully manifest while at the same time focusing my energy on cultivating unknowingness.

•To maintain an open-minded attitude of gratitude for what I have, remembering that I do not know anything about what may be coming and that really, I do not want to know because it is counter to Joy: life lived outside what I believe is possible is what I truly desire.